Ruth Graham is my new hero.

Trying to "live up to people's expectations, and you become inauthentic and you pretend you have it all together, but inside you're dying"

Read my last post and this kinda goes with it.

She rocks.


And now I'm going to go listen to my song of the week: Favorite Disease by Thousand Foot Krutch. Isn't it funny how they're music relates to me? See earlier post this year about why I'm a diehard.

Wanting, watching, debating, on which way to run to, haunted, voices, craving, someone to run
to, i haven't lost myself in a long time, i never tried to care when i wanted to, i just want
to be part of something, i just want to be real like you

[Chorus]
Sometimes, i feel like a monster, and times, ifeel like a saint, i'm on my knees, you're my
favorite disease

Silent, warnings, tell me, that i've let things come, undone, show me, teach me, the way to
heaven, cause no other way can, i havent lost myself in a long time, i never tried to care when
i wanted to, i just wanted to to be part of something, i just wanted to be real like you

[Chorus]

Closer, closer, closer to you, i need to be closer, i have closure, and get closer to you,
every step i take...

[Chorus]

And i love the way you kill me, love the way you heal me, i love the way you kill me, love the
way you heal me, i love the way you kill me, love the way you heal me